everydaywithri

 Today i went running along with Baeggi, my new roommate. Well, of course, she being german woke me up at 9am because i promised her the previous night that we would go running today and her german diligence doesn't allow her to skip on that. Of course, she woke me up! However, our run was cold, breezy and well with a lot of ducks on the way and accompanies by natural grey skies. On arriving at the city centre we grabbed ourselves a coffee at the Rosterie vier and walked our way along the Rhine promenade.  However in all of this, i thought that the everything has always lead to the right paths, i meet people at exactly the right stages who fit the instance, for example, i was living at Alok's house at just the right time as i transitioned through the old house and now i am among people who appreciate the whole idea of not really caring about the materialistic things and keeping it simple. I see myself among the right people at the right time in my life which is perfect. I am l...

 What you were told to believe about who was, is always changing. it is something that we have the most control over, i can keep changing every aspect of me and feel complete distance with what was. This is the state i find myself in. I look back every time and see how i have changed or maneourved myself to become something i would have never thought i was capable of becoming. I never thought i would be strong,wise and a foresee. I always saw myself who wasn't as smart and perhaps average. I am not sure that has changed drastically but what i have no remained is in doubt of myself. I believe in me so much so that i know i would accomplish anything i set my mind to. Its just in your head how people perceive you or they perceived you or how you perceive yourself its all interchangeable and extremely malleable. My personal self can siwm in directions i couldn't even phantom that were possible. I am capable of anything i see that i can accomplish and nobody who perhaps just like ca...

    The moment i opened my eyes to embrace the new day, I had the beautiful sun touching my face. I got myself out of the bed and in an instant i knew i had to go running. I couldn't let the sun get away from me . I felt like i had little time with the sun. My current room gets the daylight directly for just a short period of time. I knew i had to go and so i did. I love the feeling of being the only one on the streets and the fresh cool air pushing against my face while i have my running music on. I have a running route that takes me to the top of the tiniest hill i know of. The walk downhill got me to the most spectacular place. The sunlight, the breeze, the water , all the right elements for me to stretch and have my morning meditation. And what a meditation it was. Oh what solitude!Lucky for me the sun lasted a very short time and the time i was on that bench meditating was the time i had it shining on my face, warming me up. Its the end of august and it already is startin...

Monday evening, I did see yesterday people at the park on a Monday evening like everything was like before , like nothing changed. They were with a bottle of wine and their companions. Not a care in the world, their bare bodies taking in as much sun as they could knowing that today would be a rainy day. They wanted the moment in the sun to last for the longest time. While i strolled through the park enjoying watching them soak the sun like i couldn't. The world seems to be at a strange transition and i feel like in the middle of it all. Where one half is still holding on to what was and the other what is to be. Why can't we take each moment like it were our last and make the most count. Why do we struggle to go through with things that don't please us but we do it because it makes us what it makes everybody else and we are a mere part of what everybody else wants. Why has my laughter become a mere memory . Why is there so much confusion and no clarity? Why is there more noi...

The weather is certainly fluctuating here as well as all over the world. Not just the weather but everything else as well. We are all uncertain about everything. Its raining outside and ive had a nice morning with my coffee , yoga & meditation routine also a lovely breakfast of bacon and white egg. Pia and me decided to meet nachmittag for kaffee at Flingern Nord. I headed out to get some prints before i leave to meet pia & miri. I bummed into a cool guy at the print shop and he happened to be very nice and helped me out with my prints that left me with a smile on my face after whiich i left my documents at home and left in this gloomy weather and i reached hauptbanof after which i got  alost a little taking the wrong tram from which i recovered and headed to the kaffee. We all met at a sweet coffee shop where they were about to shut at 6pm. psst Dusseldorf and the kaffee shops. After which we moved over to another sweet tee & kuchen place where we indulged in tee &...

The Summer is here but the vibe isnt. Its 10 pm here and the sky is still blue but the feeling isnt. The breeze mildly warm brushing against me is here but the feeling isnt. How is that so much has happened but i feel like what we experienced went away just like that , like a blaze and what is left of it is just the rest. This hasnt gone as planned and it keeps feeling stranger than before. I wish i could change this feeling and  make things like they are supposed to be felt. 'I want to get rid of the negativity that surrounds me, The world is hurt and so are the people and whatever it is that comes to life feels like it isnt part of it. I feel distanced , angry and unhappy at how as humanity we are evolving. I would say the least is we arent evolving. We are just existing and doing nothing about the rest.