The Summer is here but the vibe isnt. Its 10 pm here and the sky is still blue but the feeling isnt. The breeze mildly warm brushing against me is here but the feeling isnt. How is that so much has happened but i feel like what we experienced went away just like that , like a blaze and what is left of it is just the rest. This hasnt gone as planned and it keeps feeling stranger than before. I wish i could change this feeling and make things like they are supposed to be felt. 'I want to get rid of the negativity that surrounds me, The world is hurt and so are the people and whatever it is that comes to life feels like it isnt part of it. I feel distanced , angry and unhappy at how as humanity we are evolving. I would say the least is we arent evolving. We are just existing and doing nothing about the rest.
Hurting
Long-Distance Relationship and to add to the mix black swan events like the Corona don't help. There is so much that i miss about him that it pains me that to add to the mixed bag there is also Corona, like wow. I miss everything about us together, our magic as we called it. It is beautiful around him and us in complete solitude. I would trade some couples who are dreading being together during this corona time to have me in that situation instead. Being an Indian wanting to conquer the world makes shit just worse. Not only am i Indian in another country at this time also my own country has banned me from returning. talk about how shitty this situation is. Nevertheless, today was Day 4 of being home but honestly, i went out twice, once for the beautiful run and meditation and the second to get a cappuccino outside because i was sick of getting the coffee at home. The clear skies tonight reminded me of our night at the beach where we just sat looking at the moon meet the water at ...
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