everydaywithri

Up at 6:30 am and continuing my morning workout followed by my yoga and meditation schedule my day begins fantastically. I continue my workday , nothing interesting. I just learnt patience is the key to things. It is also important for me to understand that. Following that was my evening which felt completely spontaneous and it began with pia forcing me to take the bike and we would ride along the path where we would also come across a little beach. Well not a beach beach but yea beach. You just cannot enter in the water as the currents along the rhine are too strong.Nevertheless, then the beautiful landscapes along the rhine, the day had the perfect amount of sun and breeze to make it feel all perfect. We were on our way to the garden where pia would be taking care of the garden and while i sipping on beer with miri decide to chill. The sunset was super and everything just had very chill vibes. Well , it would be absolutely enhanced had he been around but nevertheless. It is how it i...

Waking up at 6am today was great. I had a chance to workout at home with the help of an app in the morning and following my meditation session. I do want to wake up earlier to increase my day and make it longer. Well, such is a my wish but i will make it happen slowly. Following my first job at 8:30 am until 5:30 pm , i did want  to be able to do more but ended up doing that drawing for the whole day .Nevertheless, i was ocupado y es bueno. The post work session at the park really got me to sing louder than i did the last time at the park. Soon my voice is all they will be listening to in the evening. The sun was loving me at the point and singing brings life and joy in me. It just feels so natural like i don't need to beat myself up to produce something beautiful. The breeze brushing against my hair and my voice is all i could hear. I honestly think i sound good but today i didn't care. I just wanted the sun and the breeze to have fun. Also, on the way to the park a dog stopp...

It is a Sunday night and i am all set for the morning tomorrow. The more i proceed further in my days i feel like a little of my memories gets refurbished in my head or it goes away in someway as i embrace a new self everyday. Everyday i change to something i was not yesterday. I feel a little afraid that i become so modified that i don't remember who i was in that memory. The days seem to pass by with the blink of an eye and the days to seem feel shorter. I know truly this phase to shall teach me something and shall pass. I feel my evolution, but do i really want to evolve further? When can i put a stop to this evolution or is it never going to stop ?  The moments don't seem normal anymore ? But again, what is normal? Everything is constantly changing around me , i want to be that change. I want to do with everything that involves change. I want to transform and evolve with him by my side. I don't know if the decision i took has been right but i know in my heart it is wha...

Everytime i smell the air in the night i go back to the night spent with you at the top of the hill just looking the bright lights of the city. The beauty in us is something i definitely am missing more than the others things. I have to tune myself to believe that this is all 'Temporary', that it is in fact just a moment which too shall pass and there will be those nights again where i had you by my side. Everything is temporary , everything. It all just stays for that moment, that unexpected moment that you don't think as much of but live it because you want to be in the moment. I want to stronger, fearless better everyday. I want to be able to train my brain to live every moment in the moment itself and not anticipate or look back and be here, it is so much harder without you here with me. I want to fight against the odds and come out on the other side, like the run that i make and surpass the post that i would never think that i would reach but i eventually do and it i...

I have mixed feelings about this day. Well, it began as a Lazy Saturday with just coffee and my favorite shokomuffin and just a chat with him over the video. As the day proceeded and i decided to take my shower, something nice happened in the shower, yea just like how everyone says ideas spring onto you in the shower. Yes, they did and i just started humming something that felt like i had my song. Well and proceeded me to a sing a song, not the one i originally began humming in the shower, which is a work in progress but i just felt another song expressed my state of mind much better. I See Fire by Ed Sheeran just explain our turmoil in almost a negative light but it just felt that way. I see fire and we may burn but we need to swallow this bitter pill and be hopeful for the light at the end of this tunnel. We shall experience the silence after this storm but we will recover that is inevitable.The whole corona has taken the world like a stir and as did it my mind as well. The evening w...

Long-Distance Relationship and to add to the mix black swan events like the Corona don't help. There is so much that i miss about him that it pains me that to add to the mixed bag there is also Corona, like wow. I miss everything about us together, our magic as we called it. It is beautiful around him and us in complete solitude. I would trade some couples who are dreading being together during this corona time to have me in that situation instead. Being an Indian wanting to conquer the world makes shit just worse. Not only am i Indian in another country at this time also my own country has banned me from returning. talk about how shitty this situation is. Nevertheless, today was Day 4 of being home but honestly, i went out twice, once for the beautiful run and meditation and the second to get a cappuccino outside because i was sick of getting the coffee at home. The clear skies tonight reminded me of our night at the beach where we just sat looking at the moon meet the water at ...

So shit has gone south ever since, I have been at home not moved out in 4 days, maybe only to probably get some grocery where i strangely found the aisles of the pasta, toilet paper and broccoli section empty. I wonder what is going on in the world, it's crazy out there. Here in Dusseldorf, nobody gives a damn on the street though. Everyone seems to be doing pretty great without gloves and masks. I woke up today well pretty pumped, after a great session of Surya namaskar and meditation i decided to get to work on my shit. It worked till a point. Then shit went haywire after the bright lovely day outside made me feel like i should just be outside, Nevertheless, i didn't go out, I have been home all day. It's so weird its never been this way in like never. I did cook a lovely meal today for myself and multiple intermitted tea sessions is how i would sum my day. Along with which i watched Taylor Swift's movie Americana where she speaks so highly about being a strong women...