everydaywithri

Everything seems to be spinning in circles or maybe that's just how i am perceiving this, It may look like i am going towards something but honestly its a really twisted path. I am happy to know i have you  by my side, even though we really get on each other's nerves but there isn't a moment when you are not on my mind especially with the moments we have had together. I hope we create new memories to blur the previous memories. I had you so fucking close to me and now you are far in that exact distance, I know this shall pass too. Its just the way for now. We need to stay strong for its this strength that will bond us stronger.It doesnt have to be hard, it doesnt have to be easy either. I just want us to be a good space together with our favorite pizza and our wine. Its as simple as that. That is truly what we need.  I rightly deserve what i deserve in the life i have been bestowed up. I happen to begin listening to the translation of bhagvat gita today and hopefully it im...

I went through my facebook posts from 2009 and i am surprised by how things have changed and how there has been a constant.The constant being 'me' and how i failed to see myself in a brighter light within myself but you cannot blame me , you are taught to be wired like this .Your home , your people they are used to living way they understand best and the module that fits them the best. Its true to understand the model that fits you best and i never really discovered it until now and i am still learning and unlearning to relearn. I truly enjoy my own space offcourse with an addition to have him by my side. Going back to my thought the other day about us. We were together just months ago , and we were not just together but also in complete isolation together. We fought like crazy and loved like never before . How can things be so momentary . I never appreciated his true presence when he was around and now i would anything to have him around. Its like that was a dream that lasted...

I honestly dont know how did shit get do bad. Its 12th of May 2020 its bloody almost half the year which has gone by and i honestly cannot wait for this year to be over. I just feel so negative this year opposed to what i felt like year. Co-Vid real or not has taken a toll on the world and i feel like pawn just like everyone apart from the super rich / the illuminati who truly know what the hell to do at a time like this. Perhaps, Bill Gates was a part of this, i dont know . All i know i am facing this and it feels like fucking shit. Everything feels like a struggle. Every fucking thing. Nothing seems to be going the way i want it to . I am not manifesting well or am i just an idiot to have read all those help books only to realize that i am only a normal human with really no special abilites and only surrouned by vultures. In this hunger games, am i just to remain a pawn. When will i be able to maybe call the shots someday. Why does everything seem so odd and confusing. Everything is ...