Monday Thoughts- March 09th 2020

Why do i have a feeling like i am always chasing time? It is almost March 10th and i am still figuring every day out. Having said that i had a fabulous morning with my workout by 7 am, i want to be able to wake up by 5:30 am so i can finish by 7:15-7:30 and then meditate and nicely take a shower and reach work at 8:30 sharp. I have a bright smile on my face after the workout and i am so happy i have that. It's like one big task has been done and there is an energy rush that you feel after that workout and the calmness after meditating. I want to be able to achieve a lot in life but at the same time also balance other things. I mean why do we FEAR things so much, why the fuck can't we just go for it. These shitty rules and regulations, i mean who has made these. Before u realize it your fucking 50 and then shit it's all fucking over. No fucking way can i let that shit happen. What is the worst that can happen if i do it, they will laugh they will be like a weirdo! Ok, Yes I AM A FUCKING AMBITIOUS WEIRDO who does whatever she wants to fucking do. Who has created these rules and why should i follow them. I want to follow what i want to follow. Nobody is to tell me any fucking thing, I am happy i have a partner who cherishes this thought and that is about that i am happy. I am happy doing whatever the fuck i want to do, say whatever it is you want to fucking say. Who are these THEY in the first fucking place? The worst could be is that they block me from their social feed or social life but Hell who gives a damn. I want to live this short life like how i want to live, my life journey is a story and its a story i am willing to showcase if you don't like it it's not meant to match your story, Fair Enough. Í need to keep doing this to tell to myself, not to FUCKING CARE. Nobody gives a shit when you fucking die so why fucking give a shit about anyone but yourself. WOW. I am so gifted here. That is what i am grateful for. Time to cherish it.
FYI, Its the Corona Virus pandemic Season, the world is going crazy over this crazy gimmick and humans falling in fear of such shit because we all love to live in fear. Hopefully, tomorrow its better than today. Until next time...

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