Hold up

What felt like a gimmick now is a full-blown thing here in Dusseldorf, NRW Germany. Where so many people seem to be getting affected by this strange flu-like unknown covid Virus and i honestly don't know what the fuck to do apart from continuously washing my hands. I mean i never had to give a shit about this before and now it seems to be completely out of control. I am alone in this city, so to say, Nobody but people i have met at my company. It is scary but i need to stop thinking about this so much. This is a bad time for everyone and everything in the world and i need to continue to be stronger. But it is generally fucking with my routine. I have been working it fabulously for the last week waking up at 5:30 and now i cant go to the bloody gym, its extremely disappointing how its vulnerable humans are to things like these. At these moments i don't care about anything materialistic and all i care about is my loved ones and to achieving the greater in me at this given point of time. This virus has got me to think deeper into what i want to do with my life here on planet earth. Why am i alive? It makes me think of my true purpose in life. This pandemic makes life look even shorter than it already is. I am conscious about my being or trying to get while some people go through their days without realizing the importance of life. Solitude is sturring me but the world seems to be the hold up right now.

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